So you remember my old post “Booyah” – The one where I said “So CD16 and the internet cheapy tests I bought have made me happy. They positived and then they negatived and that means that I fucking ovulated!” – Yeah this turned out to be bullshit. Today I got to meet my specialist Dr.W (and his creepy german accent) and was told all bloods were fine except for my progesterone which showed I didn’t OV. So despite the positive tests my body built itself up and then went “you know what? Fuck it…” Yeah I sat there and knowing it might have happened but not truely expecting it just went “oh…”I then got attacked by mrdildocam and his cold cold lube and there was a brief “yeah all normal”. I’ve been placed on 50mg of Clomid with another ultrasound on CD10 then an injection of something called Pregnyl if my body actually bothers to produce anything. Then it’s left to luck and more waiting. To be honest this whole appointment seemed to fly by.
I can’t say how I feel about it all. Happy that we have progress. Progress is good. I’m upset that my body has failed me. I don’t know how to ellaborate on that. It’s let me down. Is it my fault it’s like this? I need to think on it. My FSH was good however. Normal is 9 and mine was 6.7. Yay for my FSH!
Good news as well is that Kim is all healthy. That seriously is one big worry off my mind. Worries currently are 1 – costs. Today cost 325 euros. I don’t know how much the medication will be. I know my ultrasound will be another 100 euros. Can we afford this?
Worry number 2 is side effects – They are as follows – Hot Flashes, Bloating and Abdominal Discomfort, Weight Gain, Mood Swings, Nausea and Dizziness, Headaches, Abnormal Menstrual Bleeding, Breast Tenderness, Blurred Vision, Ovarian Cysts, Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS) and I’m sure a few more. If anyone can put my mind at ease please do.
Meanwhile in my life though I missed a potential job due to having my phone off and may have missed another job due to my terrible navigational skills. I do however have the new WoW expansion to play but I’m not sure if I’m enjoying it as much as I used to. I’ll review it when I have the energy. For now I’m just going to sleep.
“This is the first day of the rest of your life, but what kind of life will it be, huh? Will it be a life of fear, of “Oh, no no no I can’t do this”? Of never once believing in yourself?”
Walter – Breaking Bad – A No-Rough-Stuff Type Deal